Live - Negation

Never used to be so tired
Never used to be so anxious
Never said "used to be" so much
If this is love then I
have been so sorely mistaken
If this is peace then I
have been so falsely awakened
Please don't tell me what love is
Let's look together
and find out what love is not
I've been to every book
I've been to every seer
in order to find the truth
as if it lives somewhere
I want to uproot my violence
I want to live like a saint
I want to give up everything
Just like the businessman wants to gain
Just like the businessman wants to gain