Joan Armatrading - Promise Land

All this time I have followed the rules
And I've lived the perfect life
Alright
By somebody else's standards
All this time I did not feel too bad
But I was not what you call happy
Not really
I was searching for something

And all this time you were standing by
And all this time you were waiting
All this time I've been living a lie
And I even fooled myself completely
Now I'm really ready
Right or wrong
I will follow your course
And if you go down I'll drown
So save me
I'm not as strong as I look yea
All this time I've been saying
No
But all this time
I've been meaning