Could I disappear with the day?
I am left underwhelmed by the pavements whisper
'Today is not your day'.
A thought for an instant, a reflection of this empty page.
For a second, for forever.
Distracted by the horizon. I am told that it s natural.
I again am left underwhelmed. I feel much older though not wiser.
I try so hard to be good, I know I promised more than this but I feel it rising through my skin.
Overwhelming.
It remembers my name.
You need to stop this, stop pretending.
Participate, just wake up and participate.
I have betrayed myself again.
I try so hard to escape my evil thoughts.
Consume me.
Leave me here
I am everything I hate,
I am empty skies.
How could you?
Let go?